I've written and deleted and re-written and deleted about three things this morning, and I wasn't even sure I wanted to publish this blog today.
But sometimes we have to get real.
I'm grumpy. I'm discouraged. And I'm disappointed in myself.
I've made some good eating choices this week, but the weak moments have definitely triumphed. and I feel gross because of it.
I've gone back to only taking pictures from the boobs UP because I'm unhappy with how soft I feel/look. See above about poor eating choices.
I'm so tired of being hot. I can't make myself want to run at 6am when it's ONLY 89 degrees outside and when I WANT to run, it's 104. So I don't go. Therefore, I haven't run since last Thursday's cool run in the rain.
I am afraid to be this brutally honest because I've been so slammed for "spiraling" or having a "negative online personality" that I feel like everything that comes from my fingertips to this blog needs to be uplifting and sunshine and puppies and rainbows or else I'll be outcast (again).
I need some rejuvenation. I need cool breezes. I need to drink hot coffee drinks without sweating. I need to be able to wear my scarves and long-sleeved tees again.
I'm ready for a shift/change in gears.
I feel restless and grumpy.
Anyone else out there feeling this? Or is it just me (oh dear GOD I hope not)?